Beauty of Nature

Thursday, May 14

这两天在看黄真伊
不要问我为什么
我想你也知道
黄真伊开头几集都是很悲的。
加上现在的心情。。。
我真是没心情做功课
不过这一个星期来的功课不都是这么完成的吗？
在无奈与悲苦之中度过的
今天又是
只是今天哭出来了
我很怕哭
一直都很怕
总觉得哭后就没有感情了
因为我每次哭后，心情就会特别空虚
好象把什么东西哭没了似的
怕哭，也不喜欢哭

哭，
是哭人们的冷漠无情。
哭，
是哭了心中无数的悲伤
哭，
也是因为我终于忍不住了

我当时很惊讶
是完全的‘恐怖’的感觉
terrified. shocked. electrocuted.
i told my dad i was going to send yunge off on sunday
and probably i will have to wake up at 4am
and he practically shouted across the room what's the point
it's so useless
not like you would never see each other again
是啊，
是会在见呐
但要等多久？
一年？两年？数年？
与其等，不如珍惜所有能在一起的时光
珍惜最后的每一分每一秒
这样，更有意义
这样，就能在她离开时，欢快的笑着
继续该活的生活
该过的日子
该走的路
心中也不会时时刻刻打着个结
时时刻刻惦念不放

当时我不敢哭出声
我怕
怕什么呢？
我也不知道
然后想起了《黄真伊》中的一句话
“与痛苦为伴，与悲伤为友。能把痛苦和悲伤化为一丝微笑的，才是真正的技女”
当时觉得好可笑
现在觉得好真实
真的是这样
我非技，但我几乎像她们一样
时时刻刻要掩盖自己的情感
我不知道我为什么会想要掩盖
但我打自有了记忆就一直在掩盖
掩盖着喜怒哀乐，掩盖着真实情感
“i'm the suffer in silence type”
完全是我吧

“你去，但不要打挠我们！”
我无奈
世上这么会有如此无情之人
对于离别的感情毫无知晓
即刻，我便落泪

我们现在跳的舞是岁月如歌
是个感情丰富，
感叹人生的舞蹈
人生的坚强不屈，
跌到了，再站起来；
失望了，不忘回来，
希望，无处不在
我初看的时候无法理解它的内涵
也无法自己表达
我想，过了今天，
我懂了
懂得人生并非完全高昂，
也有低落
能面带微笑走过这一切的一切，
才是真正的人生。

原来也不过此。

.: SpirituNatura :.

7:57 PM

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